Still not getting any answers. Been unexplicably sad today too. I don't like this feeling. It's permeating my being. I never feel good anymore and I don't know how to get out.
School's going well but I have no one.
Everyone is so busy and wrapped up in their little soap operas. I could be dying here and they still wouldn't see me.
My stomach really hurts. Constant cramps. I'm praying it's from stress. I can't go to the dr. again...I can't lie anymore.
I've been talking to God all day, but it feels like I've strayed too far. I know nothing can cut me off, but why does he feel so far away?
Then there's Dula, who I could never lie to because he'd know if I tried. I don't know how he reads people, but it's comforting to know that he already knows everything I want to talk about, and he still hugs me anyway, which, he once told me, is the sign to tell his loved ones that he's cool with them. And his middle name is Hassan..."love"
How amazing is that?
I fall for a guy, and his middle name is love...